took this photo. :D How about random gala with some of my college buds after my BA 151 exam. Feel ko ang ingay-ingay namin sa BonChon! :D I can feel the Christmas spirit! <3
Let it be known that you have been very dear to me since I got into college. Both of us witnessed how we struggled and fought for what we once thought were our dreams. You know me. You know that. Somehow, maybe because of the busy environment that we were in, we built a gap- no not a gap- a wall- a wall that separated us at some point and is now threatening to shatter the closeness that we built. I am guilty. I denied that wall’s presence in its early stage and it grew thicker, higher and stronger everyday. I am denying that wall’s presence until now.
I am sorry if this has to happen. Maybe if I wasn’t too absorbed on some other things last sem, maybe if I chose to recognize that wall and made some actions to stop its growth, things would be different. I miss the US. I miss you.
Nevertheless, I just want to let you know that I still care for you. I can’t stand to see you suffering or crying for reasons you don’t deserve. I can’t stand to see you give and give and give and receive far less than what you deserve.
You are a girl blooming with talent, benevolence and beauty. There are times when you fail to recognize the things around you that matter more than having someone to exchange “i love yous” with. You keep blaming yourself for some past mishandled relationships. A lot of times when you forget that you are worthy of attention, of love that shouldn’t only be heard, but more importantly, felt. You have become too aggressive that your emotion is overpowering you.
The ability to accept things that are not meant to be at least as of now, is a necessity in this life. After all, life doesn’t end on broken relationships. Moreover, broken relationships do not make you less of a person. NEVER.
You must first learn to value yourself before you give all the love to someone. In that way, you won’t feel wasted at the end of the day. You have to realize that there is more to life than what you are seeing right now. Someone, someone somewhere can give you the love that your heart has been longing for so long, the love that you know your heart still longs for until now. Someone, someone sometime will give you back the love that you unselfishly give, maybe even more.
I want to tell you a lot of things. I wish I could just be there for you when you need me. But there’s this wall. I am afraid we already have our own worlds right now. But I just want you to know that I still care. That I am still your friend. That I am still here. I will always be.
Sorry for the redundant phrases and wrong grammars. Its 2 am and I just type whatever my mind would tell me to. :)